Haha once again, it’s been a while! – To be fair I have been quite busy. That’s if you consider starting your own Company as being busy! Also, my website was down for a while, and I was struggling so much to get it back online, but enough of the excuses!
Sooooooo…. let’s see, what else is new? Ooooh I started listening to a new music genre – Indie Music, honesly it is such a vibe. My goal is to have a really messed up Spotify unwrapped this year LOL. Weird goal I know, but it’s so exciting to see what music you listened to during the year, especially when music is like a getaway for you.
BTW if there is any spelling mistakes in this post, blame it on Nyx! she decided that I no longer need my glasses, it’s the third pair that she has broken, but honestly it’s not entirely her fault as I am really bad at putting my things away. Anyway! I can hardly see what is going on, like it’s so blury on my screen, so if something doesn’t seem right, just scroll and have a good laugh. Also, I don’t know how I am going to watch Modern Family! (yes I am re watching it again)
Anyway, just took a vape break, I really need to start smoking less, but its so lekker to make smoke man! LOL
So my mental health has been up and down lately, probably because I haven’t seen a psychologist for a while, I am trying to find a new one, yes Daisy was really good to me, but I want to focus on some other things so I need to find one that matches what I am looking for. I am really so picky, like if they don’t have any Google reviews then I’m like pass! Also, I prefer male doctors and I also want an online one so that I don’t have to take an Uber to see him. If you know me, you know I HATE taking an uber alone, it’s so scary, like I will have the window open, my knuckle buster on, and a knife in my hand, all while trying to advertise my small tattoos on my wrists (I read that you are less likely to be a victim of trafficking if you have tattoos) anyway and I obviously want to seem normal, but my mind runs away with me the whole ride there, I just hate it. Point is, if you know any psychologists that fit the criteria please contact me? Like I told my psychiatrist I have an addiction to therapy, and he said its like exercise for your brain, and just like your body needs exercise, so does your brain, and I feel so good after rambling on about whatever trauma I wanna talk about LOL. And that is another reason why I missed blogging, its like a release for me, I used to love writing when I was younger, and I still enjoy it. I honestly don’t care if no one reads my blog, its like therapy to me, and if you are reading this, thank you! I hope I am relateable in some way!
Onto another topic, I recently had some fun with gummies (iykyk) and I went to a certain place, that well, I’d rather not mention, but if you get it, then you get it. I had so much fun admiring the confidence and beauty in these women, like standing there and being so vulnerable is crazy! oh and I had this gummy before I went there, so I had like a whole body positivity awakening LOL! like from far they look absolutely perfect, but at some point you see them up close and see their imperfections and you know it just makes you feel like it’s okay, not everyone is perfect and what they seem, and that’s okay, and they are beautiful either way. People might think I am weird for going to places like that, especially with my husband, but I like it, so judge me if you want, I honestly don’t care. You do you, I’ll do me. And yes there is absolutely nothing wrong in finding someone of the same gender beautiful/attractive. Well, I see nothing wrong with it.
Oh and on another note, love is love, and I do not judge. Like that is such a big thing for me, something so close to my heart, I love seeing people happy, no matter who they are with, no matter how they identify, no one will change my mind on this!
Anyway I am rambling on as usual, but if you made it this far, thank you! I hope you are happy and healthy, and that you are putting yourself first, that you are loving yourself and that you smiled today or laughed or even cried, these are all things that make us human, and I hope you feel comfortable in your skin, you are beautiful, your soul is beautiful, and remember, no one is perfect, and there is always room for growth. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Do what makes you happy and don’t apologize for it.
Until next time my lovely souls, remember you are loved!
xx