It’s been a good day.
It’s important to appreciate the good days. Sometimes it feels like the bad days overpower the good days, but I like to document the good days so that I can come back and remember that it does happen.
Yes, I am going to talk about my babies again! Man I love my animals! I’m looking at them rn and my heart is just filled with love and joy. Yes they can be so naughty at times! Like when they just refuse to do their business outside, and think it’s funny to use my couch as a toilet. Sometimes they run through their shit and I have to put them in the bath and wash their stinky, messy pawsies, but I’ll be honest – I find it quite funny! Especially when my husband shouts “Kayla!!!! No man something smells like shit here!” haha it gets me every time. Sometimes Nyx just paw smacks me but I remember that she doesn’t understand her size, and all she wants me to do is kiss her paws – because when I taught her paw, I rewarded her with paw kisses. I do not recommend it if you don’t want random paw smacks LOL. Sometimes, well let me be honest! most times – I find their hair all over me when I am cooking, because they are waiting for me to let something to fall on the floor. OMW one day I cut up my chicken fillet and turned away for a second and she just gobbled it all up! she left ONE cube LMAO. In the moment I did not think about anything but if she’s going to be okay. I immediately called two vets, and a friend to find out if raw chicken will make her sick in anyway. The receptionists just laughed and said she will be okay, I still monitored her the whole night. Things like this other people might find naughty or whatever, but I read somewhere that they are like two year olds, so I give them the benefit of the doubt. Nyx especially gets away with so much! She’s just a baby man!
Anyway, where was I? I don’t even know. Fun fact, I don’t read back my posts to make it flow or whatever, I just write whatever comes to mind.
The point is – I will do anything for my babies! and yes I call them my babies, and yes I refer to myself as Mommy when I talk to them. No one will convince me that I am not a mother, I am their mother and they love me, and it’s so rewarding. Loving someone or something that does not speak the same language as you do is so fulfilling, it’s different and it’s unconditional.
I often sit and think – “how did I live without dogs?” like how was my life any fun? How was it fulfilling? It wasn’t. I look forward to my morning kisses, and I don’t know why but the cheesy smell of their toe beans gives me a serotonin hit! I love how they join me while I’m in the bathroom, and how Nyx wants to climb in the shower with me! I love how they give me attitude when they don’t get their way. I love how they play with their toys and want to share it with me. On days when I am home alone with them, they are the only things keeping me sane. I talk to them, and they follow me everywhere. I don’t feel alone, and I feel protected. My neighbours probably think that I have kids the way I go on, I have a concert for them, and they hate it! haha! I share my apples with them, and they know to try and be quiet when Mommy is talking on the phone. Shame, they don’t always get it right, and that’s okay, I’ll love them anyway.
My animals have been very instrumental in helping me along me mental health journey. I don’t know where I would have been if it was not for Nyx. She saved me from my own mind, and for that – I’ll always be grateful. I’ll do anything for her, and the day that I have to say goodbye, will be the biggest heartbreak! urrrggghhhhh whhhhhhhy do I always go there? So annoying!
Anyway, I hope my animals know how much they mean to me. I promise I’ll show it in every way possible.
If you have animals, give them a hug, give them kisses, tell them how much you love them. We are with them for their whole lives, let’s make it memorable.
Nyx, Iris, Kai, Cosmo and my bang gat Tigger – Mommy loves you!!! oh and of course Daddy too.