I’ve been on this weird path where I am questioning who I am as an individual, and tbh I felt so embarrassed about it.
I told Eli – “I’m almost 30, yet I am questioning what I like and what I don’t like, and that is so embarrassing”. He then asked me: How does someone that has everything put together look like? And I said, well firstly someone that knows who they are at their core, what they like, what they don’t like. Someone that has a distinct way of dressing, has a unique taste in music, someone that is confident in their opinions and just knows what they want out of life. Now that’s just off the top of my head, and obviously it looks different to everyone. And his response to that made a lot of sense, all he said is, well that kind of person is confident in who they are, they don’t care as much about other people’s opinions, so why do you?
I honestly don’t know why I care so much about how people perceive me. But I know I am not the only one feeling this way. Eli then asked if there is something I am passionate about and I said music, and he asked if I have a favourite artist, and if you know me, you know it’s Selena Gomez. He then asked what it is that I like about her, and I told him. (Don’t worry I am getting to the point) He then asked if I watched Only Murders In The Building, and I have not. He then explained that it’s a really good show and should give it a try. We then discussed one of the other Actors, and how he does tiny desk concerts, or something like that, and he went down a rabbit hole and found one of his favourite artists. The point of this is, sometimes just one interest can lead you down a path of a whole new type of interest. And the bigger point is to try things to see if you like them or not, and that’s how you learn more about yourself.
What he said made a lot of sense because I am reluctant to try new things, and well, maybe that is why I don’t know what I like and don’t like. So, I am challenging myself to try new things. I have one new thing that I am going to try, and it scares me so much! But I think it will be good for me. Once I have actually done it I’ll share it LOL.
Anyway, the point of this blog post is that everyone is going through something, and maybe you might relate to this. Not everyone has everything figured out at the same time. There is no time stamp on when you HAVE to do certain things. We are all on this rollercoaster that’s called life, and it’s okay if you haven’t reached the peak of the ride yet. (I hope that made sense haha)
I’m going to try and care less about what people think about me, and care more about what I think about me!
If you made it this far, thank you!
Until next time my lovely souls, remember you are loved!
xx