Author: makaylajantjes@gmail.com

In your eyes, I find my solace, my dear, My partner, confidant, forever near. Your smile, a beacon, lights my way, Your laughter, a melody, bright as day.

Each morning, your hair, a playful chore, Yet in that moment, I love you more. “Angel,” you call me, with tender grace, In your embrace, I find my place.

Your heart, a treasure, pure as gold, Kindness and help, your virtues bold. Tomorrow, the next life, eternity’s span, It’s always been you, my beloved man.

In laughter, we find joy, in trials, strength, Together, we conquer, no matter the length. Your work, your mind, a marvel to behold, I may not grasp all, but your tales unfold.

Your love for others, a sight to see, Reflects the love you’ve shown to me. In your soul, I find my home, With you, my love, I’ll always roam.

I’ll support, encourage, through thick and thin, In your arms, my heart, it does begin. Know this, my love, in every hue, I love you endlessly, forever true.

Thank you for choosing me, for loving so, In your arms, my heart does glow. My dear husband, my cherished friend, Together, forever, until the end.

Don’t forget to tell those you love how much they mean to you

Until next time my lovely souls, remember you are loved

xx

I’ve made some changes. Okay, let’s be real for a second… I’ve made quite a few changes. And it all started with this blog. I am so grateful for this safe space where I can talk about what I want and just be me.

After I started the blog, I made a YouTube channel, Instagram & TikTok account and a Facebook page, I somehow ended up on Reddit too, but haven’t been very active on it. Anyway… It started with me wanting to create awareness about mental health and specifically bipolar disorder. It later branched out into my physical well being as well, and I’m glad it did.

I started intermittent fasting, started exercising, meditating, and generally just taking better care of myself. I have Daisy to thank for a lot of those things. Daisy made me realize that it’s okay to get excited about things and to make changes. (for some context I had a really bad manic episode in 2022 and I did a lot of stupid things that I now regret. I was on top of the world, full of energy, and then came crashing down so hard, so I was, you can say “scared” to let myself be happy because I didn’t want another manic episode) Anyway Daisy helped me understand my emotions and how to cope with them, same with my mood. Doing DBT therapy has changed my life.

I am so happy and at peace, yes there is a lot going on under the surface but I’m happy. I have a routine, I’m talking about how I feel without lashing out. I am becoming more confident in my body. I am making changes. I even posted some really scary things on TikTok, things that I usually wouldn’t. It’s like I didn’t want the world to see me, the fat girl. I didn’t want to be known as the fat girl. I was ashamed. But now I am holding myself accountable for my actions, being assertive of what I put into my body and how I take care of my body. I don’t care about being that fat girl anymore because that does NOT define me. I am not going to be scared of going out because of my appearance. Yes I’m overweight, what are you going to do about it? Laugh? Trash talk me? I DON’T CARE! I am making changes.

I am at my best mentally, I am getting to where I want to be physically and nothing is going to get in my way. So, come at me with whatever you want, I will still stand tall and strong, because that is who I am now. I am strong, I am the best version of me. Nothing, and I mean nothing is going to get me down.

Anyway, I want to encourage you to take that step, whatever it is, if it’s going to make you feel better about yourself, do it! Who cares what everyone else thinks? Want a supporter? I’ll be your supporter! You are strong, you are beautiful, you can do anything you put your mind to. Now go out there and do it.

Until next time my lovely souls, remember you are loved!

xx

Okay, that’s a bold statement to make right?

But honestly? I’ve done so much work on myself in the past month that I can say I am in a really good place right now with my mind.

Doing DBT therapy, exercising and doing intermittent fasting has all come together like a puzzle, a puzzle that has had pieces missing for years.

I just got off a call with my therapist, and we had some deep conversations, and part of me feels really sad, but a good kind of sad if that makes sense. For the first time I can identify my emotions and know how to deal with it.

Handling my emotions and controlling my mood has been something that I have struggled with for years, and to finally see the light is such a good feeling.

I am going to keep today’s post short because I just want to go and be present in what I am feeling in this moment, I want to process it and get through it in a healthy way, a way that I now know how to do.

Maybe I’ll make a post today or tomorrow going into detail on what I mean, but for now I want you to take a minute, take a deep breath, feel your lungs expand and embrace the smells around you, listen to the sound and feel the moment that you are in. Feel it deeply, and know that if you are going through a tough time, it won’t last forever, trust me. Here is a video I listened to this morning that I really enjoyed, and that helped me stay present in the moment.

Until next time my lovely souls, remember you are loved!

xx

Wow! I can’t believe that I haven’t posted in such a loooooong time! Time flies guys, it really does.

I don’t even remember my last post. BRB I’m going to see what I spoke about.

I’m baaaaccck! “I saw a new therapist, started intermittent fasting and had my sister over for the weekend” So that’s the just of my last post. Hmmm let’s see… what’s new?

Okay, so I am continuing with my new therapist Daisy, I LOVE HER! can I say that? Oh well. She has helped me so so much with my emotions, and how to handle stressful situations.

Let me insert something about the steps of DBT therapy quick fast.

So I feel like in the past 4 sessions that I have had with Daisy, we have covered all of this and let me tell you something… A few weeks ago I was so much in my head where I was questioning reality and I thought that nothing would help, but I was wrong. This has helped me. Yes, I still have my moments but honestly taking a deep breath and taking note of your surroundings really brings you back to reality!

So read up on DBT therapy and discuss those options with your therapist (if you have one) as I feel like it’s very effective in helping with ALOT of things.

Let’s move onto my intermittent fasting. Yes I am sticking to it. I took like a 2 day break because of shark week, but I’ll be back at it tomorrow. I am sticking to my workouts and I KNOW that this time around I will make the change and stick to it. I believe in myself and if you are battling with your weight, I believe in you too!

I feel like we need to motivate each other more. Hype each other up and be there for one another. A simple “you’ve got this” goes a long way. I had a complete stranger comment on one of my tik toks and it really made me smile, so thank you!

I wish I could make a change all on my own, wipe out all of the sadness and make others happy. Oh, I wish for so many things, but one can only do so much. So whatever you are working on and trying to do to better yourself… well done! thank you for making the world a better place!

Now, onto something funny. Guys I CANNOT do makeup, so check out my video below if you want a good laugh at how it goes south really really fast. I also talk about some random stuff that’s on my mind.

I will try my best to be more consistent with my posts, I have just been adjusting to a few things, but I’ll be back soooooon!

Until next time my lovely souls, remember that you are loved!

xx